nadhira diaries

assalamualaikum :)

monday, i'm waiting. tuesday, i'm still waiting to see if you're fine. wednesday, you're still not here. neither in the morning, nor later. thursday is also emply. friday, saturday or sunday, none of the day that i don't miss you. none of the day that you'll come back. me really miss you tokwan.

i missed the day that i met you, the day that i was close to you, the day that we held hands, the day that i spoke to you, the day that you listened to me. me really love you arwah tokwan. my friend say "crap happens, just flush the toilet and move on". but i can't flush our memories. how long it will be like this? i don't know. how many months or years? how many billions of our past memory. i'm always miss you tokwan. al-fatehah buat arwah tokwan.

i don't know how long that i've to resist everything and hide all of the truth in my heart. every time we meet, every time you turn to me, i always pretend to be still. do you know how much i've to force myself? my heart is telling you "i love you". can you hear that? but i cannot reveal my true feeling to everyone. my heart is waiting there for you to open. i can only hope you'll know it someday. though i love you, though i feel it, but deep inside isn't brave enough. (AI)

i need a true guy. one who looks taugh, but won't make me cry. and even when with his boys, he still says 

"babe, hold my hand". how sweet. but, don't promise when you're happy, don't reply when you're angry and don't decide when you're sad. i want someone who can treat me and take care of me as himself. how can i find that man? hmmm

muhammad nazrin shah is one of who kind of me. but we only know through facebook and handfone. heay, stop talking about nazrinla. yes! i admit. he's kind. and sometime, my heart says "bertuahnya kalau dapat dia". but i'm not ready to have a boyfriend yet. jangan perasan dia suka kau la minah senget! damn! me still under age. so i can't talk about love.