write it all out

my mood were really swings these days. i keep too much in my head and dont feel like sharing with anyone at all. YES, im not pretty much a sharer i'll be my personal actually. i dont share because i dont think anyone could understand me they may give a good advice but nothing could actually solve my problem, i preferred to keep to myself, solve everything by my own and fix everything, plus i dont need anyone sympathy. moving on, how i wish i have a power to start everything all over again. 2010 ain't a best year for me, too much changes, too much dramas, too much to handle. generally speaking, sometimes i dont know how i am anymore. im not a person who all-time-moody-person, i dont show my moody side of me, but now i am and sometimes i lie awake at night and ask 'where have i gone wrong ?' but i guess i've been through all this pain, i'm tired of smiling and says i'm okay to everyone which i'm not. i'm tired of everything i guess. the last time you saw me, im a different person but now im completely a different person. you may dislike the new me  but people change and so am i. i'll lead my own way, i'll do everything by my own. even though i dont know who i am anymore. but deep inside i know this is me .